Sandwich

Sweating in the middle of the night.
I'm really hot. Why is it so hot in here?
The airconditioning blows in full blast, the overhead fan humming.
But my heart is pounding. I can't sleep.

I'm itchy. And sweaty.
I'm pinned on both sides.
I wiggle but my arms are pinned against me with my covers.
ACK. I have to go to the bathroom.

I smell the familiar gamey odor. And then I manage to turn on one bedstand light.

Yup. Polka-dotted butthole with wagging stump with sleepy dewey eyes blinking back at me. I look to the other side.
Suddenly a giant paw stretches and pushes on my mouth. Blech.
A brown butthole with slowly waving flag-tail waves slowly back and forth in salute. Green glowing eyes blink slowly at me and hot dog breath is emitted from a large yawning mouth.

Dumbasses....Peee ewww.....my smelly dog sandwich.

Gives me a sense of security and love while he is absent just for now.

Close

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted,
and he saves those whose spirit have been crushed.
Ps. 34:18

He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.
Ps. 147:3

Please be close. Please be the salve that soothes.
for Jesus said: Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, Trust in Me.
John 14:1

Where God's love is, there is no fear, because God's perfect love drives out fear. It is punishment that makes a person fear, so love is not made perfect in the person who fears.
1John 4:18

Love is the only answer. Have you, do you love the way God truly wants you to?

Love heals everything. How do you love.

Standing outside

I know it's hard, but perhaps I'll never just know just how hard it is.
But I have a good idea.
I'm outside the door looking in through the window. At you...in there on the floor.

It is cold out here too.
I long for the warmth of yesterday.
The warmth of the presence and the embrace. The beam of that smile.
The dance and sparkle in the eyes.

Won't you let me make it easier for you; won't you let me help make the pain less for you. That is what I do, that is what I am here for, that is what God wants me to do for you and for others in my lifetime.

If I can take this thing all away for you, I would; I would even trade places with you.

Really. Truly. Because when you hurt, I hurt too. It doesn't matter who has this.
It affects us.

Don't you see? I can see now; What is most important. Can you see?

You may not feel it is helpful. You may feel that it is a bother.
Someday, you'll see that I was standing next to you holding out my hand to you all the while while you were there inside, seeming alone on the floor...

Living

I exist as well.

I have feelings.

I have heart.

I have a heart too.

I have a soul also.

I breathe, my heart beats, I feel. I feel every single day.

I deserve and wish to be acknowledged once----just once in a very long and very great while after being forgotten---that I am a living, breathing, feeling sentient being on this earth that truly loves another and that is loved in return.

I deserve and wish to be greeted respectfully and I deserve and wish to be asked how I am once in a very long great while of silence.

I deserve and wish to be remembered, just once after a long quiet moment; Not cast away as if I am gone from this earth forever and just a split second memory.

How do you care in return? Do you even care at all?
Let someone know that you care. Tell them, once in a great while, that you are thinking of them. Greet them. Ask them how they are. It is that simple.
It will make a whole world of difference. It is so easy. It is so God blessed and so simple, but yet so overlooked.

It is simple.
It is absolutely and completely not selfish at all.

It is, in its most simple and pure form of action: mutual respect.
it is simple consideration by the other person that the other is, indeed, here for the other at the very least, in their thoughts.

World moves

World continues to move...

Time passes rapidly by...

Seasons starting to change as the temperature becomes cooler and the colors begin to fade...

But my thoughts linger. My heart continues to feel as it has. Memories remain safely hidden. Confusion and hurt lessen and is put away as life lessons.

I'll always be here. Whenever, if ever...

What happens....

"God has chosen you and made you his holy people. He loves you. So always do these things: Show mercy to others, be kind, humble, gentle, and patient. Get along with each other, and forgive each other. If someone does wrong to you, forgive that person because the Lord forgave you. Do all these things; but most important, love each other. Love is what holds you all together in perfect unity" Colossians 3 12-14

The Woofers.

Excited and joyful. Twirling and jumping.
Springing up and down. Cuddles under the comforter.
Sloppy wet kisses with sand paper tongue.
Shaking water all over the place. Crazy dog dance.
Squeeking toys and tug o wars.
Growls and barks. Loving attentive looks.

Unconditional love...True Love. Forever Faithful Loyal Companion.

Thank you, Lord, for blessing me with the fur kids.