Bullet

"God loves me. I trust God's love. God's love brings new life. Amen."

Peace

Please God, show me how to give and to receive all your peace, joy and love.
Open my heart again.
Let in your light.
Sustain me, so I can live according to your teachings and to your Word.
Help me to completely forgive those who have hurt me, those who do not understand your teachings, and those who choose not to live purely, lovingly.
Set in me a strong and courageous heart so I can bear painful situations.
Help me to continue to be kind, gentle, patient, understanding, empathetic, compassionate and loving.
Help me to glorify your Name in my thoughts, actions and deeds and in how I treat others.
Please live through me every single day, and let me be your instrument, a beacon of hope, and an inspiration for people who need me in their lives as You live through me.

Lifting

Calm after the storm.
The fog is finally lifting.
Rays of light shining through the clouds.
The world is washed clean.
The air smells crisp and fresh.
Colors beaming brighter after a long period of gray.
God brightening the heavy darkness; finally uplifting the heart the soul the spirit.
Everything is clearer: there is nothing more precious and rare than pure love.

When one turns to the light, will one finally be able to see clearly, or will one be so blinded by the past darkness, forever until death, forever until it is too late?

Nerdly Music is wonderful. From my fave show.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i0OtJskI3t4

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The Ring

I wear it everyday, on my left hand, on my third finger, next to my fourth finger, that place reserved for that day when my heart belongs to him who God has chosen me to fulfill his heart and soul as his only life partner.

It's yellow gold and white gold with rare paparadscha in the center. It's exquisite and special to me, not only because it is my birthstone, but because it holds so many wonderful memories. It's hand crafted and unique, by an artist. Purchased from a celtic jewelry store.

Just a little tiney thing. Which holds several stories made during a particular trip to New England not so long ago: Of laughter and of good times with friends and family. Of delightful surprises and carefully orchestrated efforts. of happy times. of a special loving time with not a care in the world for just a few days. of dreams fulfilled and of hopes and dreams yet to be fulfilled. of someone who cared for me and loved me very much.

I wear it everyday as a reminder to myself of the tender moments shared not so long ago.

I also now wear it as a symbol of solidarity and support.

I wear it so I feel so not alone and lonely at the darkest times at night and those early bitter cold mornings when I'm all by myself and I am gripped by icy uncertainty and fear of the stark unknown.

I feel it with my other hand and I bring it close to my heart.
I close my eyes tightly and I remember how it was so carefully brought and given to me, the little journey that it had to take to reach my hand as it was passed through several hands to finally leave his hand to be slipped on my finger.

And I remember that I was not alone then, and that I was cared for and loved very much. I may not understand why things are and why they happen, but certain other things are for sure:
The ring will always be with me, no matter which side of the situation I will be on, and whether I face it alone or not. It will always remind me of the stories that brought it to me, and it will always be a symbol of his love.

Presence

I really need to feel your presence, Lord.
I really need you right now in my life, more than ever.

I am being tested more than I feel that I can endure. But with your guidance and
help,I know that I can come through all of this.

Please shelter me under the cool shadow of your wings.
Please give me water to quench my thirst.
Please walk beside me as I feel I am walking this dark path all alone.

Let me not lose sight of the fact that there are many many more in pain and
have it worse off than me than my situation. Help me be compassionate and loving
to these people and I pray for your deliverance.
Help me overcome my weaknesses and obey your Word.
Help me to continue to Love without expectation.
Help me to not become bitter or sad or weary or give up.
Let me continue to have Faith and Trust that your Will is the best for me and others.

Please comfort me as I try to understand why these things happen to us.
Let me not lean on my own understanding or that of man, but Yours alone.
Please show me what you want, what you desire of me and my service to you.

Let me be your instrument to do your will today, tomorrow, and always.

Most Awesome

Incredible. Beautiful.

Says what my heart can't even put adequately into words.

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Fro Yo

2 crazy terriers. One walks like human. One with non-ending toothy smile at the
little girls who clamor up to pet her.

Tugging and pulling. I'm being dragged everywhere. I look into windows. I look up
into the sky and see millions of stars twinkling down at me.

I go round and round the walk. Then, we stop in front of the frozen yogurt store.

mmm, should I? well, it is a perfect night for the perfect treat.

So, mint and chocolate for me. "Plain white boy vanilla" for the kids.
Jimmies on top of mine. Strawberries on top of theirs.

The boy buries his whole snout in the giant cup. He licks languorously, rapture in his eyes as he gives a low throaty purr of delight. The girl, well, she takes a few licks and turns away in dainty disgust; too sweet for her. She seeks solace and climbs onto my lap and looks longingly at my cup.

I sigh. Nothing like a perfect quiet peaceful night with the Fro and Yo dogs.